So there has been a change of Plan

-Sigh- I do hate when thing don't go according to plan, don't you..? Like right now I am supposed to be at a gig to watch Goldie Looking Chain with Belinda performing at METRO.. Then I saw it was fully booked:

Artist	Venue	In	On		Time
GOLDIE LOOKIN CHAIN	Metro Club	London	WED	14/01/2009	19:30	tickets sold out

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It was a tragic affair... So instead I am in my room once again, watching Patch Adams. Actually, I don't mind that. Patch Adams is a film based on a true story. Sucidal genius decides to become a doctor..But the way he attempts to connect to the patients is what I always thought it should be..

• He gives them eye Connect
• He talks to them by their Name
• He actually listens to what they had to say and was intersted in their dreams and hopes..Not just looking to cure them.
• He makes them laugh.

Best Quotes include..
"I'm really starting to love the back of your head."
"You treat a disease, you win, you lose. You treat a person, I guarantee you, you'll win, no matter what the outcome."
"See what no one else sees. See what everyone chooses not to see... out of fear, conformity or laziness. See the whole world anew each day."
"What's wrong with death sir? What are we so mortally afraid of? Why can't we treat death with a certain amount of humanity and dignity, and decency, and God forbid, maybe even humor. Death is not the enemy gentlemen. If we're going to fight a disease, let's fight one of the most terrible diseases of all, indifference. "
“They had every reason to be sad and angry, yet people were instantly friendly, engaging and giving.”
"God, maybe instead of resting on the seventh day you should of thought about compassion."

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Wasn't all that sad today. Went to meet John for Lunch as well..Went for Pizza Hut as (foolishly we met at 12 where all the City Boys were out for Lunch) it was the only place that was not packed out. Good job we did..It was Buffet Time.








we also got free garlic bread due to the guy forgetting to offer the sides.



An example were my analness to read the small print paid off. -Dances-.

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Study Sessions with Friends

Hmm, In ways to spend a weekend day, a day at a friends house is not the most unpleasent way to do so..But then again, it was a study session..
-Sigh-

The plan was that I was to go Smi's house and do our Uni work at 12. That turned into 1pm with Belinda.It turned out to be about 3 as I got lost and Belly got delayed. Plans! Never work do they..?It turned out to be fun times. Food was brought and shared, and much laughter took place.

"Work" turned out to be writting a plan rather then typing out a hell lot of bullshit for the essay.
Also the joys of Youtube was to much to resist.These videoes kept us in stitches- The sneezing Panda and the pathetic Baby Panda. I know..We are losers!



I also had a confession that I am struggling and hate the course. Bah.

Soon was kicked out by Smi, and as Belinda had to go home, I was struggling to think what do next..
Dun Dun Dun....John phoned and offered to meet me for a meal..It was like he read my mind of "Nooooo, don't want to go home yet!
The meal was a jacket potato for me and a hell of a lot of Doughnuts. Yep, he took me to the best place ever..




While nipping to the Loo, I left him by the till..When I came back, I discovered he decided to buy 24 doughnuts. It made me quite scared when I saw all the sugary goodness that he expected us to eat!





I ate 1. He ate 7. Plus we had two free doughnuts that they gave us. I felt so ill!

We also met Miss Phoebe (John's best Girlie Mate). It was quite sweet, as I havn't seen her in Agggeees. Last time was on the tube which does not make for the best conversation settings, does it..?
Anyway, the two were making plans for Valentine's Day..I am quite intriged and so watch this space. If I disappear on the V. Day, you know who to blame!

Natures is supposed to heal right..?

As I was still vomitting up everything, I was forced by my Mother to go to the A and E. I don't know about you, but I am no good when I am in hospitals. I know that I am currently training to be a Student Nurse, but as soon as I am walking in on the other side of the health service I flip.
I was bouncing off the walls when the nurse called me to see what was wrong!
Granted it was at 12 am when I went, I was tired, ill and stressed. Never good. Mum took my camera phone away from me as well. So no evidence of the trip aside these I'm afraid:




Poems on the ceiling!

Came out of A and E at 4, after having Antiemetics (Vomitted with the first batch, so they gave me some nasty tastying one) and fluids. I was not in the best of sites.

After a good rest though, I had energy to go to the Park with Mum and the Neighbour's Dogs. It was cold, though it did me good. The cheerful nature and all.(Pun not intented :P)



The Dogs enjoyed it to..


The Park was freezing.There was so much ice that the Ducks were struggling to be warm-judging by the fact none were moving and they were in huddles.




Hands got so red as I forgot my gloves. Serves me right for taking photos instead of doing the sensible thing of stuffing them in my pocket and refusing to get them out..

Worth it though for a photo like this:

A rare moment showing Weakness

I have seen flowers come out in stony places And kind things done with men with ugly faces And the gold cup won by the worst Horse at the races ~So I trust to.

That is what I am trying to tell myself:
That I can pass the Nursing Course.
That I will be able to suffer through it all.
That I will be able to smile and laugh.

But the truth is, I cannot. I feel weal, stressed and do not want to be a nurse.The fact I have been disillusionised from the second year and wanted to quit does not help. Nor the fact that John hates his course and is struggling through, or the fact my cousin did this course and got a really good nursing Job.It makes me a little crazy....

Song that seems to fit:

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

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Yes being ill does have it's adventages-Time spent trailing after links promising free stuff for one. It is goodio anyway huh..?

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http://uk.tilllate.com
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http://www.momentumscreenings.co.uk
http://freecinematicketsuk.co.uk
http://www.timeout.com



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http://www.studentbeans.com/uk/
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Now if any of you say you are bored but cannot go out due to lack of Money..
I WILL KILL YOU!
Hmm,Enj

Money Advice of how to stretch the pennies:
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So I threw up on a patient's bed...

Not the best start of the year was it..? Only 2 days back into placement and I have already labelled myself the "Idiot" with my actions..I really pity myself and the fact I am starting to hate Nursing. Not that I should let this slip, but the Wards are nothing but a political Battlefield it seems. Too much Power Struggle and in Fighting.It makes me Sad.. That and Stories including: this and that. Anyway, I managed to contact a bug called "The Nora Virus.

It is a awful thing that made me vomit up by a patient. I was not happy, especially as the poor patient was trying to comfort me. Ran into the bathroom and vomitted up some more..that is when the Nurses decided to let me go home. It was awful.Went to A and E who said there was nothing I could do but go home, drink fluids and rest.

What are the Symptoms?

The main symptoms of norwalk virus infection are diarrhoea; stomach pain and vomiting for 24 to 48 hours. An infected person may also suffer from abdominal pain, headache and a low grade fever. (

Is the Illness Contagious and How is it Spread?

Norwalk virus is highly contagious. It's spread in a number of ways: through contaminated food and water, by contact with objects touched by infected people and contact with infected people.

Seriously HATE being a Nurse-in Training Sometimes!

Poor John. He came to collect me so we ould go for a meal, and ended up having to drive me home and duck when I continued to vomit walking home. It was not the best day.. .................................. I am now laying in bed feeling sorry for myself. Not only have I wasted the day sleeping and being ill, I also tried to quit the Course...My tutors convinced me it was a bad idea and so I am forced to stay on at Kingston. Goddess help me please..

Hmm, on the plus Side..Rosie and Tom love kept me going insane on MSN, though we did love up Rolo a bit to much...



Love in the insane Group..Wooh hoo..Guess who is who..?

Stockpot, Chelsea rules my stomach..

Stockpot is a resturant in Chelsea. It is also the place where you are most likely to find me and/or my Mum. As you can imagine, I like it a lot.




The food is mainly Italian, though also has beef, fish, Sandwiches and English breakfast. Good "Set menus" and Specials that change daily.

Why am I obsessed by S.P..?
-The food is good value for money


-The Staff know me and mum so well, they talk us and give us our drinksas soon as we are seated (As they never change..)
-It is a cozy resturant that is quite small, making it more relexing.
-The food is freshly cooked, unlike some places thst have the food in precooked dishes similar to microwave food.



-It has good memories for me..
-They have a real fireplace..


-The music is not that bad..


Anyway,Sorry to Ramble on..I like Lists a lot that's why..:P