Soo this is Tumblr then?

Okie, so as I am a proud black berry owner, and everyone was talking about the greatness of Tumblr, I am moving shop to see what it is like myself. I am moving my blog and online writing time to this page instead:

It means that I will be posting more regularly though. So see you guys later!
Ciao!
:)

Soo..this is the Single life for me then?

So apart from the "woe is me, he left me, how can I cope *cries and drinks*" post and "the List" of the perfect man for me post, I have been oddly quiet.
It is not because my depression over another failed long term relationship took me over the edge, indeed, it seemed to breathe life into me and give me back my pixiedust that was slowly being drained out of me. I have had so much adventures Since March I hardly had time to breathe let along write in details over where I have been and what I have seen..
From the sheets of new lovers to seeing live music to giggling with friends, this Summer was the Summer of Adventures for sure.

So a quick Summary of the highlights:

• Playing and completing Pokemon Gold. I am that cool at being a (causal) gamer, this goes first!
• Going to Bath in April and then in May to see my good friend Dan Artsie. We explored the hills, the national trust park, Saw Lions, and witnessed his Graduation. I also met his Mother for his first time. Very cool woman.
• Getting back on track to University. Going back in September and getting my Bursary too. I get paid to complete the training. *Dances*.
• Going to Bristol to visit Waffle. It was a weekend of intriguing catch ups and seeing a more relaxed Bristol.
• TENBY! yes, I went for the weekend for Brenda's birthday. Wales was amazing. Paint balling, beaches, Urban exploring, welsh cakes and going on the track for go karting!
  
• Sheffield for The Beach Party (Dan's 21st) and Then for the Big Brother house with with the introduction of Sam. His Blog and version if you care to read is here.
• Going back to Work and getting off benefits and sorting my head out a lot better. Off the anti depressions and Self harming stops being so regular :)
• Saying a final goodbye to my close Friend Belinda and her lover as they depart to Australia for a year
  
• Going to Wimbledon Tennis with a new face in my life, Clockwise..and realizing how much I hate tennis..Urgh.
• Going for many BBQ's in various parks!
  
• Seeing Wireless! Wooh! Finally seeing Pink!
• Going Camping in Latitude! 54 acts in 3 and half Days..<3
• Going to Ben and Jerry's for the 2 days..Free Ice creams and many happy moments with friends
• Going to see many bands and my beloved La Rebla Fam and Mad Ramblings!

And the plans for the future?
Well to carry on with the adventures and get my PIN. All good times me think!

• Planning to go to Berlin for the Xmas holidays and qualifying just before then :)
• Going to Travel to America with a certain Hayley if Funds allow it and see a certain Lori
  
• To enjoy the joy of being free, young and with a good job. :)

Wooh. Pixie's back!

See you all soon!

(And thank you all for helping me get back my spirits in the hard times of Winter and Spring. I never forgot your help, support and constant Love. Especially Cookie, Sparrow, Mr D, Raz and my Mama. God knows I am happy to know you!)

So how is the single life fr you?

Wales

Some bad videos of Wales. Fun times I hope :)

WLTM a serendipity now..

So I was in the pub with a good friend when I thought I should write a list.
Yes, I resorted to writing a list to see what sort of Person I want to be with..A clear idea of who I wish the universe would send in my direction..That and I was having a laugh at Dan's expression when he read it after it was done!
Anyway, here is the list:


Pixiewolfe's lover shall agree with (most) of these statements:

-Thou Shall be a Serendipity
-Thou shall not want butt Sex or Rim me and try to kiss me straight after. That is just eww.
-Thou shall like Manga and Anime
-Thou Shall be spontaneous with Romance
-Thou shall respect the Pixiewolfe's Music taste
-Thou shall like Nature
-Thou shall not want Children
-Thou shall love rats and Sea Monkey
-Thou Shall give a satisfactory answer to the Robin Hood Morality Test (Which is here!)
-Thou Shall enjoy webcomics
-Thou Shall not argue about beliefs to the point of making the other cry
-Thou Shall be sexually comparable and sexually desire the PixieWolfe. PixieWolfe must also desire them.
-Both Shall be liked by both sets of friends. Friends are my family.
Thou shall not use violence to get his own way.
-Thou shall be respectful and truthful. Even if it hurts.
-Thou shall not be a homosexual
-Thou shall not be a A) Chav B) Fashion Slave C) A faker
-Must understand my laugh is not fake
-Must play at least one console to understand the joy of gaming
-Must own at least one Tim Burton movie that does not include Planet of the Apes
-Must get on with the family, or live outside the family house
-Thou shall not take drugs or excessive alcohol (I personally hate it!)
-Must enjoy traveling and Gigs..Even if you cannot afford it.
-Must not hold extreme left or right views.
-Must blog, vlog or have a facebook to ensure ease of online stalking.
-Must be able to deal with my craziness..

Anyway, sure there will be more to add to the list.

For now, night night my lovers! x

If you want me I will be a bit emo for the next few weeks.

So I have been cheated on. By John. Who is now dating the girl he cheated on me with.

I am not happy.

There is nothing more to say except we have split up and it is killing me.

I have not opened my heart out to another guy since Nick or Gary. I don't think I will again.

At least not for a long while til I can overcome the shame and pain of it.

Makes me ask questions I rather not answer:
Why was I not good enough? Why did you not dump me before hand? How long did he cheat on me? Did he cheat on me before, in our 2 and a bit year relationship? Why did he lie about it when confronted- and then still be emotional manipulative to try to control the situation? Why did he keep saying he want me back but make no effect to get back with me..though still claim that I left a hole in his heart when I left? Why did I give him a second chance when he hurt me badly before- or a first chance when I did not want to date him in the first place? How many people knew before me? Why didn't he realize a depressive, suicidal woman did not want to know a man was a lying cheater, and it made me retreat so far into myself it hurts?
.............
I guess most of the questions can be answered with: He is a big fat loser that does not deserve you because you are (insert nice adjectives here).

It does not help knowing that his friends are disgusted, the "new" girlfriend is going to France in a few months, showing he is using her as a way to feel the hole and I have been asked out already.
It does not help that now I got more free time to plan holidays, not feel stupid reading web comics or waste time trying to understand and compromise.

It does help that I have fantastic friends that have let me cry on their shoulders for the weeks where the heartbreak has been too hard to bear.
Hopefully more more smiles and adventures soon.

Boo.

Two great Dinner Parties.(thanks Guys)

As I am poor, I have been skipping on the restaurants and going for Dinner parties instead. Then again, I have got more friends opening their homes for the idea. Honestly, who really wants to go out when it is cold just for food in an over priced building like Gorden Ramsey anyway..?

The first one was Cookie's on Sunday. She has moved to a new flat for just her and Ryan. I am jealous. Really cheap, all inclusive and only her and her Lover. -Sigh-. The only bad thing it is in Leytonstone..but even that is no bad thing!
There was already guests when I arrived at half one. It was nice chatting to Cookie's other circle.
Eventually others arrived to fill the silences that occur among strangers.
It was a good mix..Brenda, Anna, a guy called Andrew I met before as he works in St Georges and was at a few "gatherings" and 4 others.


We gathered and laughed and socialised as you do...


Cookie turned out to be an amazing cook. There was starter of soup, Dumplings (chicken and vegetables) then rice with various meat to put on it. Brenda and Anna provided dessert and someone brought the alcohol. Fun times.

Did find out some things though..

-Cookie is a great Painter..Was lucky to see her old work.
-Brenda laugh is getting weirder and even tops me.
-Wearing a summer dress is not a good idea when London is still gripped in cold and Ice. Brr.


If you were wondering where Ryan the lover was while we were munching away, he went to Yorkshire to see family. Did see him as Anna, Brenda, Andrew and I braced ourselves against the cold to get to the Station.(He was fine, thanks for asking..)

Monday night was Anna's turn to play host. As I decided to crash at Anna's for a while I was there, as well as Garry and Iwona.
IT WAS MEXICAN THEMED.Kinda.
We had chicken fajitas. Awesome.

Again with the Catch up. It is amazing how much one can talk about once a topic is reached they like.
For Anna it was about the music and the new DJ she is into. He can mix anyone and Anything. Pure talent man. Look him up..YOUR NIECE!

Awesome stuff!